News Year Resolutions...in February

Better late than never, right. I have been very unfaithful to keep up with our blog. Let's face it, you only have to scroll one post beyond this to see I have not written an entry since November. Before that, September! I claim that the reason is busyness. I am not lying when I say we have been busy. Ryan is still working his regular job, serving as a deacon, helping with the Youth Group, leading worship in church almost every Sunday, and working on raising our support to go to the border. Me? I am homeschooling our two children, keeping our house, trying desperately to be a support and help mate to Ry. Phew! But I've claimed it before. Again, see last post. So maybe the real reason I have been so neglectful of our communication is fear. Sometimes, a lot of times, it feels there is nothing to share. Ryan talked to a pastor. I called someone to have dinner. We got $50 more dollars a month. And shame on me, I think too often, big deal. How dare I think such things about the provision of our Lord! As I say to the kids at times, you forget yourself, and I have forgotten myself. Truth is, I thought we would be farther along in the process. I thought we would be making plans to spend a month in New York this summer, plans to leave for Costa Rica and language school in the fall. Instead we hover at 10% of our total need. I am discouraged. Or at least, I have been. But, mercifully God is convicting, and will not allow us to stay in our sin. So before God and all of you who read this, I am so sorry. And so I make a resolution in February, more about my desire to trust God completely, than a goal to write my blog. My desire is that I will trust God so much that I would find something worthy to blog about everyday, even if I may not have the time to do exactly that!